SRI SATHYA SAI HRUDAYA
(Indweller of Hearts)
By Bombai Srinivasan
"Objects are not to fall on Magic Wand"
It was the year 1966. when I was employed in
Bombay, that I was
hearing, many talking about Sai Baba. I was a regular visitor to
Shiridi, offering worship at the Samadhi very often. Now I am
the name of Sai Baba, still alive and that He is likely to visit
Bombay very shortly! I felt something mystical about this, and I
started enquiring what this was all about. One of my friends gave
copy of a recently published English magazine "Illustrated weekly
India", and showed me the cover page. There I could see the
a saintly man, but with a crown of hair on the head, holding out
right hand upwards, as if blessing somebody. "This is Sai Baba,
Bhagavan Sri Sathya Sai Baba", said my friend, and urged me to
the cover story inside the magazine.
The article mentioned about the reincarnation of Shiridi Sai Baba,
Sri Sathya Sai Baba, born again at Puttaparthi in Andhra Pradesh.
amazing miracles of materializing Rings, Pendants, Mangala
etc. vividly explained therein, were very difficult to believe.
Something deep inside told me that there was nothing wrong in
believing Him and it would still be better, if I could visit this
Man. There was excitement in my mind, to know that I am living
the period of an Avatar. We have only read or heard stories of
Avatars. I thought that if only it is true that Sai Baba is an
then it is really an unique chance to live during this period. We
seen Gods as idols in temples, and in pictures in our Pooja rooms.
Here we hear that God is presently living on this earth, in human
and that He is available for all the humanity. The more exciting
was that Sai Baba was likely to visit Bombay shortly and that we
see this God inhuman form for ourselves.
I did not know what to do. Something precious was within our
during our lifetime. Great devotees had lived and served God
earlier Avatars. In Dwapara Yuga, it was said, that Gopies
served and lived ever in His memory. Arjuna was constantly with
Krishna. The only thing that I cold understand was that it would
God sent chance to live while God is on earth and to get
to serve Him. However, we should deserve for such a grace. Would I
deserve His Darshan? If He is God, then, He should know everything
about me (About all of us), past present and future. Oh My God, I
would have committed many a sins during this life. He would be
all about my deficiencies and blemishes and He might not like to
me at all. When Baba might come to Bombay, lakhs of devotees would
longing for His Darshan. Could it be assumed they are all free of
sins? Then why not I also go and have His Darshan at least from a
distance! I was very much confused and restless for several days -
see Him or not to see Him! I could not concentrate on my office
and could not sleep peacefully. I wanted to know more about Sai
and started making enquiries with whomever I happened to contact.
did not know about Baba nor had they heard of Him. They were
at me curiously and perhaps thought that something was really
Restless I was, yet I tried to engross myself in my office work. I
living alone since my wife had gone to her native place. We were
waiting for the arrival of our first child. This was already
tension. My confusing th9ughts of Baba added to my tension. My
had developed some problems during her earlier pregnancy resulting
abortion. The specialist doctors had certified that she might not
conceive again. The Grace of Sai flowing unto us, even before we
to know of Him, is a different story altogether and I shall
it, elsewhere in this book. Here, I only wish to mention that, in
spite of the complications and anxieties, my wife insisted on
her native place for delivery. It is a small remote village in
with no doctors and hospital facilities. Yet that was her wish
she wanted to be with her own mother.
Sitting alone in the house, my thoughts were oscillating between
unconfirmed faith on Baba and fears on my wife's safe delivery. My
dull mind was not able to knit the possibility of Baba's Grace
solution to my wife's problems. Then the thought suddenly flashed
through my mind. Why not pray, to the till then 'unknown Baba' and
request Him to take care of the situation. Here, I was in Bombay,
wife in a remote village in Kerala, and Sri Sai Baba in
also a remote village in Andhra Pradesh. If what others say to be
true, that Baba is God, then He should be Omnipresent. He should
able to listen to my prayers, reach out to the Kerala Village, and
bless the lady for a safe delivery. Slowly and steadily confidence
started building up in me, in Baba's divinity. At last with my
prayers, I placed the entire burden on Him. No more worries. No
tensions whatsoever disturbed me thereafter. I believed that He
take care of us.
The timing was very perfect. I got a telegraphic message that a
was born. The delivery was normal and that my wife's mother
was able to handle the situation. There were no complications, as
had feared all along. The same day, Bhagavan Baba had arrived in
Bombay! Yet I was unaware of the Divine visit. I got a telephone
form one of my friends, asking me whether I had Baba's Darshan. I
'No', and in turn I enquired where I should go for Darshan. I was
that Darshan had been arranged daily morning and evening in the
compound of a certain palace grounds at Worli area. Nothing could
prevent me any longer. I rushed to Worli, and what did I see
There was a huge crowd of devotees, singing Bhajans and I could
Baba far away, sitting on an ornate chair, listening to Bhajans. I
very late and had to stand at the entrance gate of the palace
I could not proceed further inside, because right up to the gate
devotees were sitting. I was told that Baba would usually go
the devotees, so that every one could have very close Darshan and
a chance to touch His feet. I learnt further that, Bhagavan had
already finished the rounds and anytime now Arathi would be
and He would go inside.
There was no chance of seeing Him close by, on my first Darshan
How unfortunate, I thought. Standing where I was, I prayed unto
thanking Him profusely for His Grace on my wife, who had no
with her delivery. I spoke through my heart that I had come to Him
that He should accept me, in spite of all my deficiencies and to
me through the rest of my life. I was emotionally surcharged,
literally weeping and praying. Deep in my mind, I was aware that
was hearing my prayers. There was a slight movement. I watched
getting up. He was seen moving slowly along the central pathway.
Ladies were sitting on one side and the gents on the other side.
was something strange in Bombay, to see ladies and gents sitting
separately. Before I could realize it, Swami 9as He is called
reverently) was standing just in front of me! I was overwhelmed on
seeing Sai so close to me, and I did not know what I should do. Could
I talk to Him, or worship Him, but then how? Face to face with
without any premeditated thought I just happened to catch hold of
both Hands. Baba, lowering His charming face to a side, just
me. What a captivating and charming smile it was, which bestowed
the Divine Bliss! He did not speak. But instantly, it struck me
I had erred in holding His hands, and that Swami did not approve
act. At the same time, a quotation in English, flashed through my
"Objects are not to fall on magic wand".
It took a few moments to realize the implications of my act and
it dawned on me, I just withdrew my hands. Benign Sai continued to
smile, patted on my back and walked away.
A magician normally holds a stick in his hands and touches on any
object with this stick. The magician's stick is called 'magic
When the wand contacts any object, say a stone, it becomes an egg
something. It is the will of the magician. On the contrary if we
the same stone in the magician's wand, nothing will happen.
I have now understood that there is absolutely no gain for us, by
holding His hands or touching His feet. We are only causing Him
inconvenience or making ourselves a nuisance. We can touch Him
when He asks you to do so, if any benefit of His blessings is to
After this first encounter with Divinity, I decided to wait for
call to take Namaskar. I waited and waited, year after year
though I had frequent chances of having His Darshan that too very
closely. But I dared not touch His Lotus Feet.
The longed for chance did come! But, after a patient wait for the
16 long years! Then this is a different story all together!
Author's statement in:
Many of you may
be aware that I had authored a book with the title "Sri Sathya Sai
Hrudaya Nivasi (Indweller of Hearts). This book had seen the third
reprint, and is being sold in Bhagavan's Bookstall at Prashanthi
Nilayam. Many of you would have purchased and many would not have
got chance to go to Parthi and get the book. After the third
edition, this may not go to print again. As such I wish to bring
the contents of this book to each and every one of you.
Starting from today I shall post one chapter every week or if
possible twice a week, depending upon the response I get from you
all. I would request you to kindly read it and then re-circulate
it to your other friends in the Sai Family.
The text could be transferred to your hard disk, and if possible
print outs taken out.
Utilize the contents, as much as you like.
With Lots of Love and regards