Death of the ego
subtle presence writes answers to your prayers, there oozes out
words of wisdom packed with Truth unsullied. Here is an episode from
San Salvador when God decided to write The Answer... (From the
Sanathana Sarathi Archives)
authorised the trip of Dr. Goldstein and Leonardo Gutter to the
Sathya Sai Centres in eleven countries in Latin America, the
devotees in El Salvador were very happy even though we were number
eleven. We decided to hold a public meeting and immediately wrote to
Swami for His blessings.
A few days later,
two new devotees who knew nothing of the public meeting, asked if
they could dance for Swami. This started a chain of events which led
to the presentation of the dance titled "The Death of the Ego". Four
dancers danced the roles of Ego, Atma, Mind and the friend of the
Mind. Everything was going smoothly up to two weeks before the
event. Then started some difficult circumstances. First, the dancers
all got into a big quarrel. The director wanted to quit. But with
some careful explanation it was brought to the attention of the
dancers that they wanted to present the death of the Ego to Swami
and in order to do this their egos must truly be under control. They
saw the light and danced beautifully together from that day forward.
Then it was
discovered that the National Theatre where the meeting was to he
held did not have its air conditioning in working order. The cost of
repair was equal to two trips to India. So we decided to organise a
fan brigade. Everyone that could, loaned us their electric fans.
A few days before
the public meeting, the posters with Swami's picture were delivered
and all the devotees helped to post these in strategic places around
town. In a school where the EHV programme had been introduced, a
devotee teacher placed a poster. To her chagrin a couple of days
later the picture of Swami had been defaced by some miscreant. The
teacher was upset. At first she asked Swami to punish the culprit,
but then she thought, "No, that isn't right." One afternoon after
school she was thinking on the problem and praying to Swami for
guidance when all of a sudden she started writing. It was not her
words that filled the paper. It was an answer to her prayers. This
is what she wrote...
return to you not as the image on a poster that you pretend to
destroy. I return to you as the light which you cannot extinguish,
as the truth that you cannot destroy. I return to you as the voice
of your conscience that you cannot silence, because I am the essence
of the universal truth. Wash the dirt away from your heart so that
you can hear my voice. Remove the blindfold that is covering your
eyes and you will be able to see Me. I am in you, I'm your Atma,
your spirit, your truth, the voice of your conscience. I am your
beginning and your end. You cannot destroy Me. You can only achieve
your own destruction."
The poster was replaced with this message and all the students read
it in silence and walked away.
On the day of the
public meeting, Dr. Goldstein and Leonardo Gutter were received in
the airport's hall of honour and there we sang bhajans. Then after a
brief visit to six Sai Centres, the public meeting was held. But
what a multitude! The crowds were turned a way, the doors were
closed, only those who arrived punctually found seats. The nectar of
the talks by Dr. Goldstein and Leonardo Gutter found a place in the
heart of each. Then the dancers flew through the auditorium as the
drama on the death of the ego unfolded. Swami was watching from His
chair in the Presidential box and from His jhoola in the heart of
each one present.
If there is ego and you think Swami is
yours, then Swami gets imprisoned by your ego and cannot
come to your help. But, if you think, “I belong to Swami”,
then Swami becomes free to look after you and bring you
spiritual progress. It is all a matter of humility and your
attitude. Accept everything as God. God is everywhere, in
everything. True realisation of the omnipresence of God will
knock out your ego, since it stands in the way of surrender.
Sri Sathya Sai.